Are you a half glass empty or a half glass full type of person?
I like to think that I’m an optimistic person. I love optimism and positive thinking. I often say that I’m a lucky person. Yes I was attacked by a shark, which is incredibly rare, but so is surviving a shark attack. To me…I’m pretty lucky.
When things are difficult, as they’ve been at the best of times, I can often make it through by doing two things. Firstly, by believing that I can get through it. If you don’t believe in yourself, the fight is half lost already. Secondly, to accept the things I cannot control & choose how I’ll face it. The latter is definitely more difficult for me, especially over the past few days.
The fantastic new flap on my leg started to show some worrisome signs and a dark spot also showed up on my stump end. I wasn’t really concerned about my arm but thoughts of the leg flap rejecting once again terrified me. “What if…” lingered like a grey cloud in the my head. I was helpless, as was my family, because there was nothing we could do but wait and see what happened & hope for the best. It was out of our control. But, even though the cloud remained in my head (I can’t make the sun shine despite what some people think), I chose not to dwell on that cloud. I chose to surround myself with loving friends & family and to smile as much as I could smile & laugh as much as I could laugh.
I can’t say my flap is looking better yet, but it’s not any worse. More importantly, my doctor gave me the thumbs up today saying it appears to be A-ok. Whew.
Another lucky break? Well that’s part of my outlook…but that’s only a matter of perspective, right?
How do you look at life? Are you feeling lucky?